what had happened in my clinical year

finally, after 3 days loooong that felt like a 3 weeksss looong, i finished the last EOP exam for year 3 yuhuuuu alhamdulillah *insertbackgroundsound *ofbungaapianddiscotracks hahahah

cem nak nangis terharu tergolek terlompat semua la bila mengenangkan how far have i reached to this point, after all those nerve racking exams, countless homesick days, a few good scolding, moments2 yang buat rasa cem nak nangis pastu tido past bangun nak nangis balik hahahhaa gaya cakap cem dah habisyear 5 #whatalongjourney

this post is for you guys yang tertanya2 what will happen during the clinical/klinial year.. to actually tell that you had so much fun already in preclinical years, so wake up now! haha

for me, apa yang mencabar masa year 3 ialah the exams yang banyak gila. ada 2 komponen yang kena lulus untuk lulus in satu2 posting tu which are theory and clinical. fail satu, fail la semua.

theory ada paper MEQ, MCQ, BAQ (some ada SEQ). the bad points are, MEQ paper kena jawab satu-satu, cannot see the prev page you answered, atau, kalau taktau nak jawab apa, tak boleh patah balik! but being used to it, i just dont care anymore. let bygone be bygone~ que sera sera~

clinical exams are OSCE, Long Case and Short Case. this is the baddesst ones sebab LC and SC are oral exams, which means, kena jawab soalan time tu jugak and the lecturers can just attack you with all kinds of questions you never imagined. you never know what patient you got, how complicated their condition is, and these exams are all about applying your knowledge in the patient and how good you are in obtaining the diagnosis.

to put it in my language, it felt like they ask you all sorts of question that drives you up the wall, and suddenly when no wall left to be climbed, you got so panicked! that you are breathless. i almost cry once. these kind of nervousness usually come to the worst when you got soo many garang lecturers, that look at you in the eyes macam nak telan hahaha. sometimes we knew the answer, tapi bila kena gertak tu, otak cem berterabur taktau pergi mana hahaha

but worst come to the worst, this is an interesting year. you will never learn enough sampai bila datang exam pun masih ada that SURPRISEEE elements. sebab the diseases are manifested differently in different people sometimes, clinical features bit different, some techniques wont work in different patients. it really felt like what they are sayin, that a doctor ni macam a detective.

my patient in my medicine exam came in claiming got asthma, when auscultate, ada coarse crept instead rhonchi! punya lah aku beria clerk history to support asthma as diagnosis. then ada collapsing pulse jugak! hahaha. masuk bilik exam cem blur gila, what on earth happened.

anyways, your exams banyak sangat bergantung kat rezeki. dapat lecturer baik, patient cooperative, in shaa Allah okay. kadang2 ada yang dapat lecturer irritable/strict yang cannot allow any single mistake pun! tapi, whatever they did, it is alwayss for our own goood. #sangkabaik

so at the end, what are my advices for you? (untuk diri sendiri jugak!)

buckle up your seatbelt , prepare your mental for the worst, keep up your passion, betulkan niat untuk belajar medic ni. so that when you are down, you wont quit for good.
be confident in yourself, dont let your nervousness get ahead of you!
banyakkan usaha, doa dan tawakal, sebab Dia yang berkuasa untuk atur semuanya, walaupun all those impossible things you thought!

may fate fare you well, my dear!

till then, assalamualaikum.